Feeling that can't out of mouth.... to others.

Went on to watch Season of the Witch with Zhipeng... hee... but I dun really understand the talking abt the book of Solomon. when I check the bible, there isn't any menion of it. so weird.. anyway... I am curious of something else. The darkest days, Dark crusade. Maybe I can find out more of it.. :) jus to understand more..

Anyway... I dun really feel like staying at home nowaday, I cant feel the word home in my mind. haiz.. with everyday of complaint here and there. I jus dunno what my grandmother is thinking about. she always like to see the -ve side of people. I cannot tok to her, cos she dun wanna listen. how I wish there is someone to enlight her to think a better way and not tok about others people. I think it is not right . worse of all, she even want to interrupt with my father and cousin's work. weird rite? I think it is because she is the eldest in the family and she tot that she can control everything and everyone is under her. please. if there will be some1 to tell her what is right and wrong and she is able to listen, I will be very happy.

I still haven find school to coach, Which I really hope to have at least 1 for this year. Jus hope that I can find it and pray to Father God.

I am happy to say that it passed 18 day of kicking my bad habit and there is long way to go... I muz work hard on it... I believe that slowly I will be able to kick away all my ad habit. :D so leet's do it step by step. :)


lastly, something to share, for those (if there is any) ;p

-my son, do not go along with them, do not set foot on their paths; for their feet rush into sin, they swift to shed blood. proverbs 1:15-16

telling us not to follow the way of sin, sin will in time destory themselves. If we follow the way of sin we will also destorying ourselves and our future. Think about people who you really care, about people who care about you. They don't wan to see you suffer, and I believe you also wun wanna make them sad and suffer becos of u.. :D

愿您的心都是暖暖的......

I saw this little note when I am clearing my room.. haha... CNY coming.. spring cleaning in progress.

Anyway, this is the content of the note:

逃避不一定躲得过 面对不一定最难受
孤独不一定不快乐 得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有 转身不一定最软弱

别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对或错
许多事情的答案都不是只有一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
你能找个理由难过 也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人 找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人 找到自由
懂得关怀的人 找到朋友
天冷不是冷 心寒才是寒
愿您的心都是暖暖的.......^_^

Meaningful content if you get to understand what it said, and I think this note I had kept it since my secondary school times..

Cheer {=^.^=}

Back to Blogging~~

Finally I am back here, a fresh new start this year. 2010 is a tough year, so many things happened.. I jus hope that 2011 will be a nice and great year for me.

Anyway, Just a short post to start off. hope that everyday I can post in. hahaha...

HATE EXAM...

Sian!! I THINK I FAIL MY PAPER AGAIN... I DUN WANNA FAIL.. :'(

*Pray**Pray**Pray**Pray**Pray**Pray**Pray*

Happy Birthday to me (2)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... I am here again...
hmm... today end so fast... :p

Ok... la.... I do celebrated my Bday myself.. and I am ok with it... hahaha.. How do I celebrate? let see~~~

Morning I went to gym.. hahahha... then off to buy myself my present... 1 of it is pictureal of S.H.E and a guitar book... lol.. love it... :)

then off to Mt Faber park... to take some photo.. hehe... still processing.. so wun post it here yet... once I finish editing it.. I will post here.. :) brought ah ma lunch on the back home... then watch CNY de bai wan da ge xin.. wahhaha.. nice and funny lor... bright up my days.. always~~~ :) then also... our home new frig is here.. finally... the old 1 die off... :)

O ya... I pray myself a Bday song... hehe.. the book I brought.. the 1st song is Birthday song.. haha... I think it muz be God.. when I saw that book.. and saw that 1st song.. I brought it.. :p maybe someday I will post it up also.. lol

Jus now went to class... exam coming soon.. muz jia you lioa... and is funny jus now lor... hahaha.... we suppose to go there for some purpose.. but in the end.. the head of our course was in the room.. we end up not doing sth we actually suposed to do.. till the leaturer 'dismiss' us.. hahaha.. after the VIP gone... all of us went back to the classroom again... wahahhahahaha... so funny lor.. hehee...

ok la.. end this special day with a BIG blessing.. Thx God.. :) and Pray that Peace will be present for the world!!

nite~~~

Happy Birthday to me...

hehe... today mark a very special day for me... hmm.. is it my birthday day~~~ yappy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ altot I may be celebrating it myself but I am happy that I have some1 to be with me always. I thx all who wish me.. and I bless all who wished me.. :) for those dun.. I also blessed them.. :D

haha.... and I got so many wish lor.. hmm.. list down later.. anyway... sunday 4gotten to share what I had learn... :) We learn abt promise on Sunday.. Promise that is given by God.. :) He will not forget about us.. and He always promise sth good to us... especially when we go things of his will... But we got to remember.. hmm.... We got to do the right things... Promis do not come in term of $$ but in a lot of form.. for me.. I think God given me a lot of happiness.. :) even in bad time... I believe that I should be happy.. becos... Those thing that turn out bad is always benefits me.. they always let me learn a lot of things which I dun have the chance to learn...

Always look thik is a positive way.. we know that thing always have 2 sides... and if we always bother abt the negative side.. how can we be happy? rite? so... let us all look at the positive side... Thinks God for all things that happen on us... no mater good or bad.. cos they are always a blessing from Him.. :)

Human in natural is good... so we should continue to do it... :)

I also realise that... I do can choose my life... I cannot always stay in the comfort zone.. I got to get out to find my own life.. :) I got to face the difficults... I will stand firm with my God who always with me and I will be able to face all fears.. :)


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here is my wish for my Birthday:

1. I wanna always be with God.
2. A happy family.... with everyone healthy and happy...
3. I hope I can open up and know more pple.. :P maybe at least to some1 special *still loooking for her*
4. I wanna improve in my wushu. especially my coaching style... (I do wish I can get the instructor cert asap)
5. I wanna study harder.. Gambatte.~~~
6. Improve in my guitar so that I can lead my cell group in worshipping.. hehee... (some1 help me with this.. thx.. :p)
7. I wanna get rip of all the sinful things I had gone and still doing... I wanna cut off with it.. and live a peaceful life.
8. I wanna World peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and all nations can solve things throught calm and nice talking. dun 动不动就war and fighting~~~
9. All nations who affected by nature disaster and others factors that affected the pple there... I pray that all will come to an end and peace and happiness will be staying forever..
10. Pray that Singapore will be always blessed by God.



We have the abilities (everyone od us) to make a different for the world. We jus gif a little caring and love everyday. and 世界会变得更美好!!

THINK POSITIVE!!

Found that wushu is not onli abt wushu... it got a lot of things in it.... gif some example... on how we jump... pple got this mindset of using legs la.... wahahhaha.... I also lidat... but.. last wk when I attend gym training.. then I realise that.. it is not onli the leg that is used for jumping.. it also include the kua... hehehhe... happy rite.. but i try to experiment it... very hard to do on xuan feng tui... sob sob.... my most dun like move.. haiz... jia you ba..

Today church taught abt Humilities... hehe.. got to keep re0reading it.. but I got this very meaningful thing that wanna share... is it to "Not to complaint and argue... even things is against us. :)" cos we will learn sth in the end... complainting wun help.. cos in the end we are the 1 suffering from that.. why not think is another angle... keep in mind that we care born a loving person and not a bad person... if we keep thinking positively on anything we are doing.. U will feel good.

dun wait.. do it NOW.. start thinking positively!!!

Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, Philippians 2:14-15

Enjoying my course.

Attended a course for the past 2 days. MCMD course... hmm... since when is the last time I attend a course? like 2 yr ago?? who know... anyway this course, Effective commnucation, is a greet course. had a lot of fun.. playing~~ luff-ing also... hahaha.. best and most of all.. learnt a lot of things... which really influenced me a lot. I can rmb the way of human mind and how to differential them. and know that we cannot change people, we can onli influence them.. so that they may know and change themselves. :) I enjoy the course a lot. and It help in my future career too. :)

no pic taken :p hahaha...

O ya... I got my dreamed set liao... a D90 bosy, 70-300mm telescope len, 28-75mm fast lens and a 18-55mm lens attached with a 0.45x wide lens.. hahahahaha... altot need to keep change len for different things that I wanna shoot. but them... I am ok with it.. hahahahahaha..

Dun let the passion down... fire it up~~~~ :)

Realise that God already plan things ahead of me, preparing me for my future.. :) *Happy*

Super Import Night & National Wushu Display

Yo... yday a way busy day... when for coaching in the morning.. after that.. to Singapore Expo with Benny, Joshua and Byan.. ehehhe... and I dun drive wooo~~~ all sitting Byan's car... :p... Taken some photo in there... but had not finish editing all.. so will jus post a few.. hehehe.... not a bad exhibition but... nth much to buy.. most are car that redecorate... it is like a show that showing how u can do to the appearance of ur car to make it now impressive.. hehe.. and it do cost quite an amt.. I think... :)

Meet leslie at Expo as he went there to look for his things also... :0 then we went to the Singapore Indoor Statium... hehhe.... watch the Wushu Display.. lol... I dunno abt the previous 1... but hmmm...... blah blah blah... ok... hhaa... no comment.. cos It is like SPWUSHU family gathering lidat... wahahahaha... enjoying ourself.. fellowship and... KFC as supper.. lol... PM Lee is there for the opening.. and when he is there... we got to scan our belonging.. lol.. and I am like running abt in and out of the scanner.. hhehee... *The scanner is onli at the area where our PM Lee is sitting... and I happen to sit at the area* so.. I think the Polices like c me till dun wanna see me lidat.. wahahahahahahhaha... and it is fun... :P I mean going in and out of the scanner.. WAhaahahaha... the display.. not much photo taken... maybe only on the few China coaches who I know but very blur.. cos high zoom and I cannot find a hand rest for ny Camera.. (should ask Wenbin to bring my Fujifilm there... ) wahahah... this part of photo.. totally haven edit... so.. got to wait to post in.. hehee...

There is different between Joyfulness and Happy.. :D

New song

Jus uploaded a new song... Consuming fire... one of my fav song.. enjoy.. hahahha.. :)

No subject!~~

My DSLR got a home now.. hahaa.. Jus got a Dry Cabinet for my camera... cost 100.. is cheaper.. hehe.. anyway... I still chort of a fast lens to finish my collection... (those len that I wanna use) maybe I will get it this wk.. hehee...

Looking forward for an oversea trip.. but then... I still thinking wanna go oversea this yr to China onot.. cos budget tight.. hehee... If i can go then best la.. but 1 thing also.. I had miss the Marathon for 2 yr.. I dun wanna miss it again.. :( so the comming Dec 1st Sunday I wanna go.. hahahahhaa...

I had finish my yellow ribbon run.. which I like it alot.. cos I dun gif up half way... Thx God.. hahaha... If next yr still got I will join again.. :)

Learning guitar... now came to a bottle neck.. I cannot form rhythm from chord.. need help.. hahaha... I still a beginner so I got to work hard ba....

School wise... I like it.. but my problem is that I got to work night shift.. so when come to that wk I cannot attant the class... So I muz jia you... Justin Jia you jia you.. hehehhehe....


Honoring people around you, honoring the God!

Photo time!!!

Photo of the NDP night cycling.. haha... I dun put most of the photo.. too much. and also... they dun have mi in it.. wahahhaha... We cycle from ECP to LCK.... hhee.. next target will be ECP to woodland.. :P anyone wanna join our next trip?? hhahahaha....

Photo taken in the poly 50... I dun have more.. if not I will post more... :) it is an enjoyable day~~~

Happy ever after...

yes~~~ end of Poly 50.. haha... it is fun.. and then is a once a year thing.. good job SPWA altot we dun run fast enough but then teamwork shown.. hahahhaa.. enjoying it also... the photo is with Jul.. so have to wait for her to sent mi then I can upload them.. :)

recently thinking abt myself.. wat make mi so different.. haha.. I think there is a lot of thing.. Lord did so much thing for me... I have so much frens ard me.. and I think they all given to me by God... hahahha.. Frens in SP, especually SPWUSHU... in SAF.. BMT fren, RSAF frens... and working frens.. so much of them... fren from church... they are so wonderful and caring.. :) my relatives also... haha...thx to all frens.. o ya... not to forget.. my best buddies.... haha.. with them ard.. I think I am very fortuned... anyway... I also hope that they do well too...

David is the 1st to get married.. on 1st Aug.. his ROM.. a wonderful day.... hahaa.. May God bless them forever and that They will have a ever lasting marriage.. hehhee... coming will be Dec 25.. yap... tt is the big day~~~ hope this time I will take out my camera to take pic.. hehee...

I got quite a lot of pic to be posted in... hehehe.. maybe I will have a post of all photo... plus those which I took frm my camera.. ;p

God love us and want us to Love our family!!!

happy start with sad ending.. :(

Ah ma come to christ yday.. it should be a happy event... but in the end it come to a sad ending... I jus dun understand.. howcome pple like to control others' life? ah ma is happy that he converted come come to Christ. the whole family is happy for her.. she seen so happy yday nite... and here come.. onli 1.. and I really mean it.. the 1 and onli who reject it.. my father.... He is so unreasonable lor... tryting to control wan ah ma wanna do... she is his mother ok... :<

anyway... he said that we force ah ma to convert.. which is the most not trust lor... she wan it herself.. pple even tok to her abt this and she really wan it.. somemore.. she also did this for the family... I dun understand is.. howcome my father act like a kid lidat... doing things where kid did... haiz..

I still respect him as my father. but i cannot understand y.. yes.. he is the head of family.. but His mother should be the Head of whole family.. and he can lidat say to his mother... i feel that he is so childish lor... haiz....

My grandma wanna convert cos she is old and she dun wanna pass down buden for the next generation.. she wun wanna her to cont my father's worship... but howcome my father dun understand it.. haiz...

Anyway.. pray for the best ba... I am really tired of adult.. who think they are always correct... and not listening to the young genaration... maybe 1 day i will really blow up and jus leave here.. go to another place to stay.. :(


I dun wanna be like them.... I dun wanna be so unreasonable... I am still learning it.. cos I wanna open up for pple... but they... haiz.. they can say other pple is ok to do tt.. they dun mind.. then when come to their own family.. BOOM!!!.. haiz.. how to improve if this thing happen...


I know that I have some1 here for me whennever what happen.. and I am happy with it... and I hope my family will have it too... :)

depressed yday~~

Heard a shocking news yday... and I dun even know whow to react... haiz... :( ??? msn from Yvonne.. saying that she is seeing someone... at 1st I was like.. ok.. congrad... but then later on.. I dunno wat come to mi... a suddenly depression jus knock into my mind.. I dunno how to explain the feeling.. and somemore.. I dun really wanna her to know.. : anyway is I dui bu qi her 1st.... and not to treasure her.. so... regrat also no use le.. jus let it be... jus keep things to myself and tt is enough.. :) feeling down yday.. so dun really do much thing... and find comfort from my Father.. who tell mi sth... "As a mother comfort her child, so will I comforted over Jerusalem" Isaiah 66:13

Altot not totally related.. but it make mi think a lot.. and I got to thinks my God that he is with mi at that moment and confort me..

What can I say. He is some1 who I can trust in and to speak up... so I tot of praying for Yvonne.. that God will bless her and gif her happiness.. :)

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I had too long dun update this blog.. currently the H1N1 is so jialat lor.. I will pray for all the nation that this virus will be gone in Jesus name.. and everyone will be health..

I take up guitar long ago and now I c some improvment.. which is quite good la... also I got my 1st DSLR.. which I love it a lot.. ahahhaha.. will need to get better lens.. so jus pray for it...

Lost my Hp.. dunno how I lost it also.. feel sad abt it.. hmm.. current aiming for blackberry 8820.. hahaha.. cos tt phone enable mi to load my course document so that I can stusy when working.. :)

injuried my elbow with my own sword.. li hai ba.. hahaha... still recovering and wound had already join up.. thx God.. :)

what else... hmm....


I am happy... yes... and I will be happy for everyone... who share with me happy things... and sad with pple who tell mi sad things..

tt's all... :)


May God bless all pple and gif happiness to those needing it.. amen...

End of the Performance...

Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! ghahaa.. after so many months of rehearsing and training for the performance.. yday comt to the very ending of it... yap.. yday is the performance.. hmm.. too bad I dun have the chance to take video of my CCs... i not I can youtube it in here... hehe.. I think they do very will altot here and there there is mistake.. but consider this is the 1st time and they dun know how to do it properly... but I guess I am satified with them.. Great work YTCC, TPYCC, AGCC and JSCC... :) and I have to thanks all the parents that suppporting me till now... :D

My event... hmm.... 1st part of ji ti quan already do wrong... cos I too jing zhang.. hehee.. forgive mi ... :P other then tt still ok... enjoy myself too...

ok... I too long dun update my blog.. cos nth really excited happen jus that all the while I am busying with the performance... working wise.. hmm.. I am trying hard to complete my training.. :) and my life... still searching for my other half... hahahhaa... ok la.. everything seen fine.. and now I am more relex... I got to work harder at work.. :)

life going into next phase... and teaching go up a step too... :) all the best for me..

Lord love sinner and dun lik sin... XD

Exam ended..

finally my last paper on today.. all wat I wanna do now is to pray that I can pass it.. :( ya.. I need to pass it... and I wanna pass... cos if I cannot mak it then I cannot study anymore.. and I really wanna study... haiz... ok.. i hate exam.. then is the part I hate abt study and other than that I love to gain knowlegde.. :P yap... tt's me.. hahaha... y cant jus take away he exam and I will be studyinig happily.. wahahaha...

Pray to God... I need a lot of prayer.. :P

and I wanna thanks God that he help me in this exam also.. :)

end of instructor exam...

Sun jus end the instructor exam... hmm... dun really have the comfident to pass it.. haiz... anyway... jus pray for it.. the most... worse come to worse.. I got to do everything all over again... :) ok.. hmmm... sun isit a good day... I dunn wanna say who.. but then.. I dun really happy with him... cos if he thin my exam is not tt important it is because he already in a high position... but for the youngster... we wanna strike to get sth... they jus dun think... tt's y.. there are a lot of pple leaving... :(

I jus pray that I can pass.. tt's all.. and pray to God... :)

Rehearsal 250409

Ending of the 1st rehearsal... hmm... objective hit.. so I should be happy... next come to difficult.. which will be... making sure all know wat to do... and all know how to control the timing of the routine.. hehee... wat can I ask for?? I got to thx God for helping me and by my side.. :)

I really need to know wat to do.. then go do it... not hiding in th mind.. in he heart la... haiz... I said wanna add a ger.. but till now haven.. cos I dnnno will she accept mi onot... o jus del the contact.. wahahhahaha.. so... got to get comfirmation 1st ba.. :)

as for wokr.. hmmm.. I think I got to work harder.. :)

sch exam coming soon.. and.... here come the toopid guy trying to study with comp on... video of anime on.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... go out study is still the best... wahahaha..

O ya... I misss COOS.. tml finial going liao.. wahahha/.... :)

*today no color.. cos I am very tired... wanna slp eary.. wahaha.. ta ta... and miss those I should miss... May all be bless... hehee..

How should I do??

Ys.. it is time to move on.. :) I feel much better... hmmm... I dunno what I doing is right or wrong.. but I know that I will always ask God for blessing.. make Pray that He will guide mi throught things.. :)

Anyway.. I come across this ger.. hmm... it not counted I know her, but that I see her b4.. I dun think she wil remember mi also la.. :) but then.. I would want to get to know her... jus that.. I dunno how to do it.. hai... :)

Pray that God sent some angel to help mi with it.. :P

ok la.. short update.. sun lab test.. I muz do my very best on it.. :) my last hope le.. haiz... jia you..
go slp liao.. tml a nother long day again.. hehee...